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Well I feel it again, so I'm writing again. Now you must know, I'm still on those (something) uptake inhibitors, and I'm still doped to kingdom come. But is it still better than mania? Oh yes. The forefront of me is a sheep, I like to be petted on the head and cooed at, told how much I'm appreciated, etc. I do needlepoint still, and quilt. Not sarcastic at all, just quiet. If I were The Gladiator, this is the time I'd be riding on the cart with maggots in my arm. (My muse moaned like a whore when they ravished her.) And I'm jealous of these Rss feed diaries so I'm going to do mine, too, if I can. This is a whole year later, a year and a half, since my last entry I think. Of course being a packrat, I saved my email from blogger with my username and password. I've been through a lot of stuff during my absence, which I will happily recount for you the way I like to. I want to teach myself to write while I'm on these pills, and this is a good place.
My day was probably much like yours: I watched my mom, in her lime-green wife beater, braless and tripping over her boobs, run out into the backyard and bark at the dog through the screen, as a joke on the dog. Yes, I suspect we're a lot alike, you and I.
Horny, lonely, ate too much, cleaned house today. Ran a mile holding my boobs on the treadmill. Rained all day. That's all she'll give me tonight.
I'm starting an exciting new web page. Details soon to anybody that cares.
Well there's been so much going on but I just can't write like I used to, so I'm just going to write lists, which is the best thing I'm good at, writing lists.
My mom had a stroke last week, I stayed with her in the hospital for four days
She's home now and fine, it's like she never even had one
I'm having 8 people coming to live with me next week; staying until August
I'm horny and lonely (news flash, eh?)
I'm starting a new quilt today
Life doesn't let up, but I get messges in the shower, and while exercising, and the messages tell me not to give up. The reason I know they're messages from beyond, is I get goose bumps on my right hip. This is an odd place, and a new place, so I'll know for sure the communication is coming from where it's from, and not just from me being chilly. Of course, that's a generic message, that's what that Seinfeld exercise guy says, I can't remember his right name. But the accompanying feeling, is what makes me think it's from
them. Feelings mean more than words, they're more powerful anyway so I wouldn't expect them to be flowery.
I had a synchro the other day about Darwin, and to me Darwin means "survival of the fittest" just like it means to everybody else, and I was in the hospital with my mom and a nurse was talking about Darwin and then there was a commercial on the Discovery channel about Darwin three seconds later, and we all went Whoa! like dumbasses but I only pretend to be a dumbass. Then later on my brother called and told me a story about a Darwin award. The message I figured was, that my mom was going to be okay. And when I glean the correct message, after the tension is gone of figuring it out and waiting for the final synchro of the message, I say into space, OKAY I THINK YOU MEAN BLAH BLAH BLAH and soon, maybe a few hours, I get another synchro, to affirm it. I know it sounds crazy, I don't care who believes me, I know what I know.
FDA Clears Implantable Chip
Thursday, April 04, 2002
WASHINGTON — A company plans to begin selling a computer ID chip that can be embedded beneath people's skin, now that the Food and Drug Administration has said it will not regulate the implant as long as it contains no medical data.
Applied Digital Solutions Inc. designed the VeriChip — about the size of a grain of rice — to hold information that could be read with special electronic scanners. The company has touted the chip as a potential way to hold a person's medical records or security codes.
Applied Digital had heical device chief, Dr. David Feigal, who made clear that the agency could step in at that point.
If someone is unconscious in an emergency room and implanted medical records are outdated, that could be more dangerous than if doctors had no information, he said. Feigal urged companies considering such health-related implants to consult with the FDA.
For now, the VeriChip will bear only an identification number, said David Hughes of Technology Sourcing International, a consulting firm helping Applied Digital in its discussions with the FDA. But that ID code could be cross-referenced with a database to detail any kind of information.
The company said production would begin immediately.
VeriChip emits a radio signal and has been derided by some for its "Big Brother" implications. Applied Digital has said it could prove invaluable in emergency situations when someone is either unconscious or cannot otherwise give information.
VeriChip is expected to sell for about $200. A scanner used to read information contained in the chip would cost between $1,000 and $3,000. A doctor would insert the chip with a large needle-like device.
I've been out of town again for a few days. Just took a shower and washed the road grit off. Saw two wrecks, and a guy tried to cut us off twice. Husband got up beside him and yelled "What's your fucking problem?" and tried to run him off the road. I got my purse ready because there's always traffic helicopters and I figured we'd be stopped but we weren't. Mr. Jerkoff (the other Mr. Jerkoff- the driver who tried to cut us off) was a soccer dad type, and his female was flipping her hair around. They had Sears shirts on and let's face it, they brand themselves with those, and really, in a darkened judgement theater, answering as if my life depended on it, I would say that those who wear Sears shirts are expendable. And why am I still obsessed with hierarchy this week? I don't know. In some way I'm elbowing everybody out of my space.
Anyway during the hour I spent after Husband tried to run him off the road - off the interstate going 75 mph no less - I was figuring how he doesn't love me anymore, not like he used to. He would never endanger me like that. I'm lonely and I'm going to screw a priest and a jailbird. My relationships mirror my obvious dichotomy. I used to be ashamed of something, how I'm not one or the other, I'm both a saint, and a jezebel. As if I need labels. But using words, that's all I can tell you.
And the priest I'm going to fuck, let me tell you about it. He wants freedom and nastiness and a quiet woman that does needlepoint while he kneels at her feet. I know this because it already happened. (not the fucking part) And the jailbird, well, he's in jail so you know what he's like, no explaining there, no effort, no mystery. But the priest, now there's a mystery. People that like mysteries, they should watch out for me. I'm slightly guilty for charming them but not 100%. Because they want me, they want me to reveal the mystery to them, on all levels. And I'm good at that, and to do it feels good, like I actually have a purpose, even though afterwards there'll be guilt and avoidance. But not on my end.
but maybe not, maybe not that bad, maybe I'll be treated like the only woman in history who screwed a priest, and he was actually happy he was screwing me. YEAH AND THEN THE SUN EXPLODED.
I can't get in the straight way so I always use the side door. To the point now where I never bother with the front door at all. There is no wisdom in religion. I was arguing this with a friend last week, him trying to tell me
how it is. I got mad and threw a pita across the room and hit the back door, and they looked at me, then preached on. I felt like I was in an insane asylum, as they talked about how God loves me and I should accept the natural hierarchy of things.
Sad fools, I thought. And anybody they lead are indeed sheep. So I came home and now it's all bitching about fixing the car. The universe rewards action and it won't be long I'll be banging a jailbird. There is more purity in that, than any religion. Religion is for ugly people who can't capture an immaculate dream.
U.S. to Weigh Computer Chip Implant
Wednesday, Feb. 27, 2002
WASHINGTON (AP) - A Florida technology company is poised to ask the government for permission to market a first-ever computer ID chip that could be embedded beneath a person's skin.
For airports, nuclear power plants and other high security facilities, the immediate benefits could be a closer-to-foolproof security system. But privacy advocates warn the chip could lead to encroachments on civil liberties.
The implant technology is another case of science fiction evolving into fact. Those who have long advanced the idea of implant chips say it could someday mean no more easy-to-counterfeit ID cards nor dozing security guards.
Just a computer chip - about the size of a grain of rice - that would be difficult to remove and tough to mimic.
Other uses of the technology on the horizon, from an added device that would allow satellite tracking of an individual's every movement to the storage of sensitive data like medical records, are already attracting interest across the globe for tasks like foiling kidnappings or assisting paramedics.
Applied Digital Solutions' new ``VeriChip'' is another sign that Sept. 11 has catapulted the science of security into a realm with uncharted possibilities - and also new fears for privacy.
``The problem is that you always have to think about what the device will be used for tomorrow,'' said Lee Tien, a senior attorney for the Electronic Frontier Foundation, a privacy advocacy group.
``It's what we call function creep. At first a device is used for applications we all agree are good but then it slowly is used for more than it was intended,'' he said.
Applied Digital, based in Palm Beach, Fla., says it will soon begin the process of getting Food and Drug Administration approval for the device, and intends to limit its marketing to companies that ensure its human use is voluntary.
``The line in the sand that we draw is that the use of the VeriChip would always be voluntarily,'' said Keith Bolton, chief technology officer and a vice president at Applied Digital. ``We would never provide it to a company that intended to coerce people to use it.''
More than a decade ago, Applied bought a competing firm, Destron Fearing, which had been making chips implanted in animals for several years. Those chips were mainly bought by animal owners wanting to provide another way for pound workers to identify a lost pet.
Chips for humans aren't that much different.
But the company was hesitant to market them for people because of ethical questions. The devastation of Sept. 11 solidified the company's resolve to market the human chip and brought about a new sensibility about the possible interest.
``It's a sad time ... when people have to wonder whether it's safe in their own country,'' Bolton said.
The makers of the chip also foresee it being used to help emergency workers diagnose a lost Alzheimer's patient or access an unconscious patient's medical history.
Getting the implant would go something like this:
A person or company buys the chip from Applied Digital for about $200 and the company encodes it with the desired information. The person seeking the implant takes the tiny device - about the size of a grain of rice, to their doctor, who can insert it with a large needle device.
The doctor monitors the device for several weeks to make sure it doesn't move and that no infection develops.
The device has no power supply, rather it contains a millimeter-long magnetic coil that is activated when a scanning device is run across the skin above it. A tiny transmitter on the chip sends out the data.
Without a scanner, the chip cannot be read. Applied Digital plans to give away chip readers to hospitals and ambulance companies, in the hopes they'll become standard equipment.
The chip has drawn attention from several religious groups.
Theologian and author Terry Cook said he worries the identification chip could be the ``mark of the beast,'' an identifying mark that all people will be forced to wear just before the end times, according to the Bible.
Applied Digital has consulted theologians and appeared on the religious television program the ``700 Club'' to assure viewers the chip didn't fit the biblical description of the mark because it is under the skin and hidden from view.
Even with the privacy and religious concerns, some are already eager to use the product.
Jeff Jacobs in Coral Springs, Florida has contacted the company in hopes of becoming the first person to purchase the chip.
Jacobs suffers from a number of serious allergies and wants to make sure medical personnel can diagnose him.
``They would know who to contact, they would know what medications I'm on, and it's quite a few,'' he said. ``They would know what I'm allergic to, what kind of operations I've had and where there might be problems.''
Applied Digital says technology to let the chip to be used for tracking is already well under development.
Eight Latin American companies have contacted Applied Digital and have openly encouraged the company to pursue the internal tracking devices. In some countries, kidnapping has become an epidemic that limits tourism and business.
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I'll be a millionaire soon, then what? I'll build a Winchester house.
Yes it's very stupid to make a list of countries you want to nuke. Like a beloved wife and mother who leaves a list out on the dining room table of
Who I'm Gonna Fuck for her husband and children to see. You just don't do that. You just fuck them quietly and let your family love you still, in their own way, so they'll get dewy-eyed at your birthday and bring you violets.
Well, you say,
you can't go nuke somebody quietly. There's plenty of ways go get rid of every person you don't like. There's satellites with face recognition, with beams they can shoot at you from miles up in space. They can simulate heart attacks or anything. The real question I can never figure out is why some of those people even get to live. Surely it's not moral law they're adhering to. My conclusion is, as it always is, there's a bunch of aliens controlling everything, and they need misery to feed on. This is why I'm determined to be happy, to slap the face of hostile aliens.
